We are best friends. We are soulmates. We are married. We are both survivors of childhood sexual abuse, and as a result have experienced severe trauma. Not surprisingly, we both discovered the role alcohol and drugs played in managing our trauma. Equally not surprisingly, we discovered the horrific downside of that particular method of coping and surviving.

So, thankfully, we both individually have many years of recovery between us. One of the many consequences that people with histories such as ours experience later was issues with our sexuality. Although the many years of therapy and 12 step participation had miraculous and long lasting levels of healing for both of us, the reclaiming of our God-given sexuality happened only as a result of what organically flowed between us once we became a couple. 

This has great meaning for us both. Our sexuality was intruded upon, robbed, and polluted by others at an early age. Taking back ownership of our own sexuality has been a form of justice like no other. We are now free. We are no longer shame-based. We are no longer acting out or getting re-triggered by our past traumas in any manner whatsoever. In fact, our sexual journey has been one of the most empowering, freeing, and healing means we now have to connect intimately, not only with each other, but with other select people we feel safe with. Yes, indeed, sex magic is a real thing.

 Currently, one of our greatest forms of enjoyment is to share this energy, love, and healing with others. It is done generously with no expectations, full transparency, compersion, empathy and complete sensitivity to others. We do not need nor expect anything in return, other than the experience of love and joy we can transmit through ourselves and into our partners.

Seriously, this rocks! 

Early upon our becoming a couple we made a steadfast decision to absolutely, positively not hold anything back from each other and participate in full, raw, and complete disclosure with each other.

Scary stuff. A tremendous return on our investment!

We whispered in each other's ears, that we wanted the others darkness. Although that initially required a tremendous amount of courage on both our parts, it has transformed our lives forever. We made a commitment to allow ourselves to free associate, fantasize, dream, participate, and explore anything that revealed itself to us at any given moment. The only rule was that it was safe, sane, and not a form of acting out. What we have discovered has rocketed us into the fourth dimension. As if this wasn't enough, it continues to unveil itself in an unedited and surprisingly endless spectrum of activities.

We are no longer in a box. We advanced to a state where we were able to live outside the box. Now, we have advanced even further.

For us currently, there simply is no box at all.

It's a myth, it's a construct, it's an arbitrary container that doesn't actually have any real form or substance. We are flabbergasted to find ourselves now living in a universe where there are no bounds and no restrictions other than what our truth tells us at any given time or place.

We simply were unable to imagine ourselves in such a place. We honestly didn't even know it existed. We are free, we are authentic, we are grounded, and we are fully alive. We are not on a holy mission to bring this to the rest of the world. Not only are we not that important or powerful to accomplish such a grandiose task, but we fully surrender to the fact that most people are either too scared, or to closed off from this particular state of being. We do, however, derive deep pleasure and excitement from sharing this with the few people who are both interested and capable.

We love being with people who are in a similar place. We also enjoy being a conduit to help those who are truly interested in reaching this place. If we never share this with anyone other than ourselves, we will be completely satiated. If we end up sharing some of this with many others, will be equally delighted. We do not necessarily need or even want to share this with everybody on a physical level. Sharing this in a philosophical or social manner is equally delicious. We are simply looking for others who are on their own journey of experience like we are.